fear

i go to bed with this fear of fallling asleep.

strange yes, but true nonetheless

so much so, that i've been dozing off on the couch lately

i then wake up with a fear that the day will go by too quickly

i end of the week with a fear that the months will pass me by too quickly,

and soon i'll have to end my european adventure

i fear not having work,

not having a steady income

i fear regret

having not tried enough or rather, not hard enough

i fear losing a sense of self,

then wondering who exactly this "self" is

is it possible to have a mid-life crisis at 25?

that is the nature of my fear.

dog days are over - florence & the machine